I won’t let you fall, I promise

Everyday, I wake up and I think Okay, let’s put on a smile so that he realizes that I am happy without him but then it hits me that you’re away, and even if you were close you wouldn’t look at me, ‘cause you never do, not anymore.

You used to look at me and really see me. Now, you look at me, and you see through me. Your eyes used to light up whenever I smiled, now they just don’t light up. You used to smile whenever I entered a room, now, whenever I enter a room, you look away. You used to hug me everyday, now I’m lucky if you touch my arm. After a kiss you would look into my eyes, put your hands around my waist and there were a few moments of silence, in which everything was said. You used to pick me up and say I won’t let you fall, I promise and then you would kiss me. You used to touch my hair when you wanted to ask for something. You used to grab my hand and play with it for half an hour. You used to make me laugh at everything you said or did.

I may have erased your texts, I may have unfriended you, we may have stopped talking, we may have ignored each other and we may have stopped hugging, but I will never forget what you wrote, I will never forget your pictures, I will never forget your voice, I will never forget your face, I will never forget your smell.

You promised me you wouldn't let me fall. But you did, you let me fall, and the worst part is that you didn't catch me. 

I will never forget the little details that make you, you. I will never forget us.